Well it has finally happened, the way of life has got me so badly that i feel like im smothering, im really tired of my way of being, and im suffering of something even worst than envy, and that is a mixture of rage and envy, im envious of people who can feel happiness a thing that i dont know, SHIT is so painful to see people who are actually happy or have some motivation and that you are stuck into something so deep and so dense that you feel like there is no way of getting out of it.

So why is this journal, because i have decided to start in the unknown i want to get away of the people i know and dont speak with them again, because i cant see other way to left this agony pass away, so this deviant acount is done for, and i dont want to even explain myself, it would be pointless im one of the worst human beings ever to be born on this world, and thats it, do not wish me luck or anything, i would fell like you are pity on me, So thats it. I will follow this road alone from now on